Jobs

I don't have one. I need one.

A movement in the right direction?

I am just about done with Cumming, GA. It has been my home for almost nine years and I have never really felt like things were exactly the way I wanted them to be. I look around each day and see the same things over and over again, wondering what will get me out of this mundane day to day. Starting over is an idea I have had for a long time now and never really had an opportunity to experience. I am sure there were a few chances but I most likely pushed them away with the notion that it would be to much work and I would be alone in my efforts.

It is amazing how one phone call can decide your future.

I was having an unusually boring day at work, probably because it was memorial day, a national holiday were no one works and if they do it is short hours, so I called my brother to express how my job sucks and I need a new one. He simply replied " Why don't you move in with me?". Just like that, a chance to escape and start new with someone there to help if things get tough. Not only is my brother there but his wife and my nephew as well, who are always fun to be around. And so I will be moving to Woodstock, GA. It is a minor step but a step in the right direction. I will only be an hour away from where I am now but I need this disconnection from what is currently the norm to really see who I am and what I can create.

As I travel through to the unknown I will see with my eyes open, and I will take every moment in with great gratitude.

Some time has passed

It is good to let time pass before I write new blogs. Things work themselves out, and other things are just starting to happen. I needed change, and I got plenty of it. I was looking for something to change me. I wanted something to happen that caused me to get off my ass and achieve. I always have ideas of things I would like to do, and if I would actually apply myself and do, then I very well may get somewhere.

I often get really into something, like art or photography, and can't stop drawing or taking pictures. But within a week or two this usually passes. I discontinue my productive actions and go back to my routine of work, eat, sleep. I give myself nothing to look forward to and just go into the back of my mind to have a few drinks with my soul.

... I had to stop writing and go to work. Then I went to a party. Now I am home. Many things happened today. Emotions were up and down. Mostly at a peak high. Unfortunately they have fallen. I will go to sleep now.

Two days have passed and I am feeling alive. I took advantage of a day off and was productive. Family is coming all this week for my grandmothers 90th birthday this weekend. It will be good to see everyone again.I don't feel like writing anymore so I will end this with a quote i feel is fitting.

"We must walk consciously only part way toward our goal, and then leap in the dark to our success. "

Henry David Thoreau

A new year is coming

It is time to make a change.

It has been a little bit

Too start things off, my job is becoming more consuming and soul crushing then it ever should have. The drive for more money and a more stable situation have put me in a position that I had not intended. I am now working full time and always the night shift. It seems that when things are becoming good, and life is satisfactory, something different happens and more or less screws it up.

Three months ago I was running at least a mile every day and I would see my friends all the time. As soon as August hit things changed. I decided to move out with a friend (This is good) and I got a promotion at work (not as good as I had thought). I am being severely underpaid, and everyone is quitting or are so incompetent that they should never be allowed near people EVER.

This is not the life I had envisioned. I have bigger plans for myself, and I feel like everyone that is close to me agrees that I am capable of great things. I don't want to be a celebrity, I just want to do something that gives me a sense of self worth. I want to have a purpose and help others in the process. My mind is on fire trying to think of a way to kick start my... I am at a loss of words. I don't even know what it is I need to be kick starting. I just hope whatever it is, it happens soon.

It's 3:44 in the a.m.

I took a power nap while watching a western and now I am awake and ready to write. My cat is being a bitch and won't stop tearing up my carpet. I worry this could become a nasty habit, like if she started smoking. But without the diseases.

I do believe I will be playing mini golf tomorrow, or if that falls through, going to guitar center to look at everything I can't buy. Either way it will be a goooood time.

Fuck owls.

I'm not sure I trust lizards anymore either. I think of all the animals in the world, the lizard might be schizophrenic. But I am no animal doctor. I am a Reverend Notary of the public. I can marry anyone or thing and afterward I can stamp the paperwork.

Ughhh, give me a chance and I will be gone. I worry that I am becoming to tied down to GA. I have a lease and a full time job. A month ago I was going to take a trip around the country, but now I am happy to have every other weekend off. Maybe I will be able to save up some money and make something for myself elsewhere. I can't see anything else working out for me. I don't want to make other people money anymore. I don't even want to have to deal with money PERIOD.

I just want to live. I think I just need to find something to live for.

When I do find whatever that is, I will let you know.

It is now 4:18 a.m.

Good Morning

Where I am

Hello my devoted and oh so humble readers. I thought I should give an update as to what I am doing and how the plans are going for my trip.

WELL, I just moved into an apartment with Gordy and his women friend Sarah. It took about a week but we are pretty much settled in now. All we need now is a dining room table and we are officially done. We also need an efficient internet connection as we are currently just picking up all of the unsecured networks around us and they are not to reliable.

The trip got put on a BIG TIME hold because I just got a promotion and I have no free time anymore. I will be bringing in more money but since I moved out, I now have more bills. What a shitty system, but that's life.

I am planning a new trip now to New York to go see one of my super best friends Bundle, also known as Kap, also known as Alexandra. I have not figured out when I am going or how much this trip will cost, but it will be happening in the next year for sure. It is going to be awesome and the adventure there should prove to be an exciting time for everyone involved. I have one confirmed crew member. The Magnificent Maggie Jensen. A true believer in the go to New York cause. When the time comes we shall sally forth into the great wilderness of the American east coast to discover and solve all of its most wondrous mysteries. And when we have arrived it will be the most grand of occasions. We will drink mead and eat upon the most succulent meats of the city. I can't wait.

Other than all of that life has been about the same. Just enjoying every day to the fullest. I really have nothing to complain about. We are in an economic tragedy with unemployment higher than it has been for a looooooong time and I just got promoted. To sum everything up... life is great and I hope to see you all there.

Also owls and moose are crazy blood thirsty fuck monsters that need to be taken care of like we took care of the zombies. DESTROY THEIR BRAINS.